October 12th Day 50 --> A Day of Rest

Breakfast:  nothing

Snacks:  pear, apple and cashews

Dinner: Peppered Steak and green salad

Exercise: a well deserved rest day

Thoughts:  

I am aching, and I mean aching from yesterday's workout!!! My back and upper body are screaming!!!! I haven t felt this sore after a workout for ages!!!! It's a great thing!

I spent today chilling and relaxing. My body is sore so it was minimal movement and minimal stress. I just sat in and watched Netflix. I enjoyed it. We all need rest days every once and awhile. Tonight finished with a hot bath. And as I speak I feel my eyelids drooping.i will be sleeping like the dead tonight and be ready for a good, hard legs session tomorrow!!!! 

October 11th Day 49 --> New Trainer and New Attitude

Breakfast:  sausage, bacon and eggs

Dinner: starter-spicy Turkish sausage main dish-spicy lamb with Cucumber red onion salad the boyfriend and I shared a bottle of prosecco. 

Exercise: A cracking Personal Training Session with my new trainer

Thoughts:

Well this morning I started off on a good foot.  I got up and went to my first session with my new trainer.  And I have to say, this was an amazing workout!!!  It was a kickboxing based workout. We'd do 3 minutes punching combinations and then go to the treadmill and do a fast walk.  Then she taught me some new exercises that were all about carrying your body weight instead of traditional weights.  The workout lasted a full hour.  And it was the hardest hour of my life.

Throughout the workout, she was encouraging.  She didn't scream or bark orders at me.  She worked with me and encouraged me.  When I started flagging, she would pep me up.  And when each exercise was completed she gave a well done, not in a condescending way.  But a really encouraging way.

She told me that she leads some classes at the gym and I think that I will try them.  She does a spinning class on Monday night and a circuit class on Wednesday morning at 6:30am.  That means that I can have a lie in on Wednesday morning!  Result!

I left feeling euphoric, sweaty, tired but really happy!!!  I got my chores done and got myself ready as the boyfriend and I decided to have a date night.

I read the menu before and decided on my meal prior.  Makes it so much easier.

So I came home feeling good.  Not drunk, full but not over full.  Just felt happy and healthier and looking forward to the week ahead!

October 9th Day 47 --> 4th Day in a Row of Exercise, Motivation is Back

Breakfast:  Mango Smoothie (dairy free)

Lunch:  Chicken Stirfry

Dinner:  Spicy Tomato Soup

Water:  2 liters

Exercise:  Interval Training on Treadmill 30 minutes


Playlist:

Miles Kane --> "Don't Forget Who You Are"

The Vaccines -->  "Melody Calling"

Kasabian --> "Shoot the Runner"

Royal Blood ---> "Figure It Out"

Black Strobe --> "I'm a Man"

Imagine Dragons --> "Radioactive"

The Stone Roses --> "She Bangs the Drums"

The Black Keys --> "Lonely Boy"

John Newman --> "Love Me Again"

M83 --> "Reunion"

I went back to the gym this evening and had a good run.  My body is feeling a lot better. 4 days in a row to the gym is a great streak for me. The running is getting easier as my stamina is improving but I still struggle on the sprints. 

My skin is looking really lovely too.  I didn't wear any foundation or facial make up today except for mascara and some eye liner.  I feel focused again and like I am back on track.  Plus I am using the gym as an escape.  I have an extremely stressful job.  And I am using the gym to get away, run it out and use the anger, frustration, and upset into something positive.  A healthy toned body.

It's easier to sleep on a stomach that has eaten soup for dinner. That's made a huge difference!!!!

Plus I have some planning to do. The boyfriend and I are having a date night on Saturday so inner to research the menu. It's Turkish food which is predominantly meat with veggies.so I need to choose some good healthy dishes.

October 8th Day 46 --> Getting Back into the Groove

Breakfast;  Dairy Free Mango smoothie, pineapple

Lunch:  Chicken, Bacon, Avocado Salad

Dinner:  Tomato Soup

Exercise;

Final PT session with Dan 


Thoughts:

I had my final Personal Training Session with Dan. It was a tough one. I worked hard and now, strangely, I feel quite motivated. It's weird. I am looking forward to this new chapter ahead of me. 

I has a dairy free mango smoothie for breakfast and it was yummy!!! Mango is a lovely fruit, juicy and full of fabulous flavour. It's like a taste of summer! 

I have also discovered that working out in the evening is a possibility. I work for my boyfriend and we drive to work together. At the end of the shift he usually stays an hour or so behind. The gym is a 15 minute walk and I can do a 45 minute session and have him pick me up after. It's another opportunity so that's a good thing!

October 7th Day 45 --> Whoever Said a Minute is a Long Time Has Never Done Interval Training on a Treadmill

Breakfast:  Pineapple

Lunch:  Chicken, bacon avocado salad 

Dinner: spicy carrot soup

Snacks: cashew nuts

Water: 2 litres

Exercise:

Half an hour of interval training on a treadmill plus walking .8 mile from work to the gym

Playlist:

Jamie T --> "Sticks and stones"

Kasabisn --> "Eez-eh"

Imagine Dragons --> "Radioactive"

Kasabian --> "Fire"

Deadmau5 & Kaskade -->  "I Remember"

Pendulum --> "Slam"

Churches -->  "Lies"

Kasabian --> "Where Did All the Love Go?"

Chase and Status --> "Blind Faith"

Thoughts:

Firstly, I am proud because I have gone to the gym on a cold rainy Monday morning and I went again today. That doesn't sound like much but it's massive for me. It's a huge hurdle that I have overcome.

Secondly, I am changing up my dinner to soups. The reason? I physically cannot sleep with a full stomach. I have noticed the difference already. I am sleeping better.

I think that could be the reason why I am able to go to the gym yesterday and today.

I have decided to do a test. I want to know what sort of workouts work best for me. So this week I am sampling interval training for a half an hour. 

My interval trying consists on me doing a walk jog sprint thing. The routine I have is a 30 minute routine of that principle. It's also meant to be done on an incline, fuck that!!! I just want to get through it without dying then we'll talk inclines!!!! I am mostly getting through it though. The last 2 sprints i am holding on for dear life praying for the torment to end.

But you know what? I fucking did it. You can't take that away from me. I walked to the gym. I pushed my body and I did it. I completed the workout on a flat running surface. I will continue this for the rest of the week and see how my body reacts. Next week I'll try weights and see his my body reacts to that. 

Losing weight is trial and error. You have to try different things. What works for one person won't necessarily work for someone else. You need to shake it and try what works for you.

I am interested to see what my work this week will deliver.

October 6th Day 44 --> Monday Morning Workout Triumph

Breakfast:  Fresh Pineapple

Lunch:  Chicken, bacon and avocado salad

Dinner:  Thai Carrot Soup

Drinks:  Coffee with honey and almond milk
              1.5 litres of water

Exercise:  30 minute interval training on the treadmill

Playlist:

3OH!3 -->  "Starstrukk feat. Katy Perry"
Robin Schulz & Lilly Wood --> "Prayer in C (Robin Schultz Remix)"
The Prodigy --> "Breathe"
Black Strobe -->  "I'm a Man"
The Stone Roses --> "This is the One"
Nero -->  "Me and You"
Republica --> "Drop Dead Gorgeous"
The Prodigy -->  "Omen"

Thoughts:

Well, I did it!  I somehow broke through and made it to a Monday Morning Workout!  It almost didn't happen but you can thank the boyfriend.

There I was laying in bed snoozing.  I woke up and looked at the clock.  5:34am.  the rain was pounding against the window.  I thought,  Nah, I'll go tonight.  I rolled over for another hour and a half of rest then my boyfriend started to snore....really, really loud.  And I mean, loud!!!!  It was almost deafening.  I put my ear plugs back in.  Nope!  I could still hear.  I looked at the clock again. 5:54am.  There is no way that I was getting back to sleep.

So I got up and went to the gym.  Normally I would have stayed in bed, but not this time.  I did my interval training on the treadmill.

During the sprints, I did really well.  I usually have to put both hands on the side and drag myself but I managed to stay upright. I know it doesn't seem like much but it's a massive step for me.

Also by having soup in the evening I am not feeling bloated so going to bed is easier. 

Yes I cleared a big hurdle today and I am on my way i think.
       

October 2nd Day 40 --> New Workout

Breakfast:  Bacon, egg and sausage

Lunch:  Chicken Salad 

Dinner: mixed grill

Exercise:

30 minute interval training on treadmill

Stretches

Gym Playlist:

Black Keys -->  "Howlin' for You"

Chase and Status -->  Blind Faith

The Courteneers -->  "Van Der Graff"

Faul & Wad ad & Pnau -->  "Changes" (Loving this song!!!  Good beat, good workout song)

David Guetta Feat Rihanna ->  "Who's That Chick?"

The Prodigy -->  "Warrior Dance"

Miles Kane --> "Don't Forget Who You Are"

Pendulum -->  "Slam"

Thoughts

Managed to get myself to the gym and try something different.  There was a workout that I saw on the internet that was interval training and I wanted to try it for ages.  I was scared of it because it had inclines that looked super scary.

So I broke it down.  I decided to do it without inclines.  Just run it straight to see if I could do it.  And I did!!

Granted, I dragged myself during the sprints but as I continue to do this I will get better and stronger and I will defeat this.

I get frustrated sometimes.  Especially in work.  My job is stressful, rewarding but stressful.  I go home a lot of days in tears, with a sore stomach, I have sleepless nights with this because I am fighting for my living.

This is a different fight. It's for my health, my sanity and my inner peace.  for the body that I have always wanted.  For my confidence.  For my inner strength.  This is a fight for my life.

This fight too has provided tears, sleepless nights, scars, stress, and moments where I question my sanity, strength and mind.

I know that this is doable.  I know that I will succeed.  It's about strength of mind and that is what I need most of all.

October 1st Day 39 --> Pity Party Over, Let's get fit!!!

Breakfast:  Banana

Lunch:  Chicken with fajita seasoning and a small vegetable medley (red onion, olives, red peppers, tomatoes, avocado, and spinach --  and yes, cheeky people, I know that avo's and tomatoes are fruits and not veggies!!)

Dinner: chilli with a small spinach salad

Water:  1.5 liters

Exercise: killer session with Dan the PT man

Thoughts

Well, after feeling sorry for myself the last few days, I decided to stop being a whiney bitch and get up off my ass and keep going,

So I ate well today and had a very intense but great session with Dan the PT Man. I was dead lifting, leg pressing, squatting and rowing up a storm!!!! I felt so much better after. I am glad I went to the gym! It was the boost I needed I think.

I am feeling more like myself today. I think the motivation is back so fingers crossed I will be back to kicking ass!!!!